A bigger pond

This entry is part 1 of 4 in the series A Bigger Pond

In the autumn that I turned thirteen, I became a middle-schooler at Wesley Girls’ High. Located in a northern suburb of Taipei City, the school was founded by Methodist church and alumni of former McTyeire Girls School in Shanghai, including Madam Chiang Kai-Shek (née Soong Meiling).[1] With the mission of educating girls in “free China,” its curriculum emphasized in character building in addition to academic excellence. Initiated with the first 7th-Grade class in 1961, the school quickly became a sought-after choice for many parents and young girls.

The campus stretched out on a small hill by the bank of Waishuangsi (外雙溪, which means outer double creeks). All the buildings had Western architectural design: unsophisticated yet serene in their appearances. The main building, straight up a short climb from the gated entrance, was a three-floor rectangle compound. The administrative offices, library and audio/visual classroom were on the first floor. Classrooms, teachers’ offices and science labs were on the upper floors. Next to the main building was the auditorium where weekly worships and major ceremonies were held. Further up the hill was the audio/visual-education building where the language lab, the home-economics classroom, art studio, music practice rooms and nurse’s room were located. Dining hall and dormitories were on top of the hills overlooking the valley. Faculty housing was on the other side of the creek. Married teachers lived there with their families, so did single male teachers. Sometimes, we could see young children playing outdoors.

The well-designed landscape blended beautifully with the natural surroundings. Taiwan was known of its mild climate: 四季如春 (all four seasons are like spring). Perhaps because of the mountainous geography, the changes of seasons were more pronounced in Waishuangsi than they were in the city. In early spring, violets would cover the grassy area. Azaleas soon brightened the hills. Red buds on the acer maples[2] in front of the dorms quickly turned into light green new leaves. Giant orange red flowers would open up on bombax ceibas (cotton trees). When the fragrance of gardenia filled the air, spring semester would be soon over. In the fall, we waited for the acer leaves to turn yellow and gold. It was a scene rarely seen in subtropical Taiwan. When the tree branches became bare, Christmas would be near. The gorgeous environment was perfect for nurturing developing minds of young girls.

There were three classes in each grade: Faith, Hope and Love. Although most of my classmates were from Taipei, a few of them were out-of-towners. Since we all lived together in the dorms, our origins didn’t matter much, except that students from other regions would not get to go home every weekend. Six of us shared a bedroom. Other than six twin-sized beds and small closets, there’s a table with stools. There wasn’t much room left to move around. A common area at the landing of each floor provided us spaces for group activities: evening prayers, reading, and occasional choir/play rehearsals.

On each floor, there was a small suite for two teachers. Most of them were in their twenties. Their suites were our sanctuaries. They took care of us in emergencies, answered our questions on homework; and, most often, provide us much need consultations while we transitioned into adulthood.

My parents brought us up to be independent. I knew how to take care of myself. So, it wasn’t difficult to say goodbye to mom after she dropped me off on the first day. Plus, I knew that there would be an eighth-grade “big sister” assigned to my bedroom helping us through the first semester. However, my transition into the new environment wasn’t entirely easy.

I lived in a very protective environment prior to that time. It wasn’t hard for me to stay at the top of my class. There were plenty adults giving me directions on when/how to do everything. Suddenly, no one was there to tell me where to go and what to do. And, everyone in my class was smart—many of them, much smarter than I. The first evening, during the study hours, I watched my classmates reading and working on exercises, feeling completely lost. None of the teachers assigned any homework; none of them assigned any reading. I wasn’t quite sure why we needed to be in the classroom for two hours.

Making the matter worse, our English teacher gave us a pop quiz on phonetic alphabets the next morning. I was wondering on the first day why we weren’t learning the words in the text book. Instead, we were taught some strange looking “things”: [θ], [ð], [i:], [I], [ʃ]. . .. Not having studied, I got my first ZERO in my life. It humbled me and settled me down quickly. But it also planted self-doubt in my young mind, which lingered for years.

Living at home, I could practice the piano whenever I found time. And, it was up to me to pay attention to the music (or not). At school, I had to sign up to use practice rooms. With limited time, I knew that I had to focus better. And, everyone walking by the building could hear me! I began to take music seriously.

The most difficult thing for me was to communicate with my classmates. I didn’t seem to speak their language and didn’t share too many common interests with them. No one was rejecting me. Yet, I felt like an odd duck.

Luckily, I trusted my homeroom teacher. Freshly out of college, she was only ten years older than we were. I spent countless evenings in her room seeking consultation. Often, we talked pass “lights-off” time. She would then walk me back to my room. As I moved on to higher classes, our evening conversations would continue. Without her patience and care, I would have had much harder time finding my place among my friends and in this world.

As time went by, I did make friends—not only with my classmates but also with girls in other grades. A few of us stayed in the same class for six years. Although we found our lives in different parts of the worlds, with the help of modern technology, we were able to remain in touch. Whenever we met together, instantly, we were back to the treasurable years that we shared together.


[1] Also established by Southern Methodist Church, McTyeire School in Shanghai was a leading institution for girls’ education in early twentieth century China. Mostly from elite families, its students received Western education in English.
McTyeire School-for-China’s-Daughters
The most famous alumni of McTyeire Girls’ School were the three Soong sisters. Their father Charlie Soong converted to Christian faith while a young man in America. Having made his fortune printing and selling Bibles, Soong befriended Dr. Sun Yat-Sen, the founder of Republic of China, and joined the revolution overturning the ruling of Qing Dynasty. The eldest daughter Ailing entered McTyeire at the age of five. Her two younger sisters, Qingling and Meiling followed. After graduation, all three girls attended Wesleyan College in Georgia, United States.
Through the marriages of the sisters, the Soong family had strong impact in the political and financial development of China throughout the twentieth century: Ailing married one of the richest men in China, H.H. Kung, who was influential in the economic policy of R.O.C. Qingling married Dr. Sun Yat-Sen; and Meiling married Chiang Kai-Shek, Dr. Sun’s successor.

[2] 槭 Acer truncatum is a type of maple common in China and Korea. In Taiwan, maples are found only in higher altitude mountain regions. The character 槭 is often mispronounced as “qi/chi/ㄑㄧ.” The correct pronunciation should be “cù/tsù/ㄘㄨ`.”

Border crossing

Building a wall along the southern border to prevent illegal crossing has been headlining for weeks. For a country, borders manifest sovereignty. For individuals who wish to crossover, they can either be symbolic stopping points that cause minor inconvenience or major hurdles that can be life-changing.

Years ago, before one of her visits, mom told me that, while in North America, she wanted to go to Canada visiting friends. To avoid any complications, I drove from Kent, Ohio with a friend to Buffalo, New York to apply for a tourist visa in advance. In the early afternoon, the waiting room at the Consulate was crowded with people of various ethnicities and ages. Families of multiple generations sat together. Some with apparent legal representatives. People talked quietly. There’s tension in the air.

My friend looked around and said, “This is where everyone is equal.” I disagreed. Although all applications would be processed based on the same regulations, some applicants definitely had better chances of having their wishes granted. One’s origin, which happened not by choice, matters; one’s financial stability, which supports one’s activities while in hosting country, matters; one’s personal history—education, religion, professional records and, in some cases, marital status—matters. Concerning these legal matters, I always consider myself among the privileged ones. Yet, even someone like me could encounter challenges crossing borders.

My first student visa that allowed me to enter this country came with a heavy price. Back then, all foreign students had to provide “evidence” of financial adequacy for the entire first year—tuition, books, room & board plus miscellanies expenses. This regulation, for many ambitious youngsters, had proven to be a deterrence. Without mom’s support, I would never have the opportunity to begin a new life in the States.

As I transferred from school to school and matriculated through the degree system, I had to renew my visa and/or obtain new visas—not without drama. By the time that I completed all the course work and began the preparations for my dissertation, I knew that, in order to pursue my dream of becoming a professional musician/ researcher, I had much work to do. I needed to be at a place where I could find information to support my research. I also need to be at a place where I could continue to polish up my skills and to gain more experiences. The United States seemed to be the right place for me professionally.

But, first, I wanted to make a trip to Europe. To save some money, my travel agent Donna, who helped me long-distance from Omaha, Nebraska, suggested that I flew into Germany and traveled by train from there. I heard wonderful things about the rail system in Europe. So, I gladly agreed.

In pre-European-Union time, traveling with a Republic of China passport meant that I needed multiple visas to get around. Donna was superb in finding great deals and planning trips. However, she never worked with anyone that needed a visa for every stop. She called German and Italian Consulates in Detroit and was told by high ranking officers that I would be able to apply for visas at their offices.

Things went OK at German Consulate. I only needed to make another trip to pick up the visa—since I would be leaving in a week. But my application went nowhere at the Italian Consulate. They said that, since I wanted to study at a University, I would have to go back to my country of origin to apply for the proper visa. The bad news infuriated Donna. She tracked down the lady who gave her the “go-ahead” and got a new verdict: If I would show up when they opened the door on Monday morning with my documents, they would grant me a visa.

I got up in the middle of the night; made the four-hour trip and stood right in front of the office. The gentleman who opened the door seemed shocked to see me. But, right away, he realized who I must have been and ushered me in. The lady who promised me a visa also came out to greet me. I got the visa and their blessing.

Two days later, I flew out to Frankfurt.  No one checked my documents as I passed the entry door.  (I must have looked “American” enough.) No one looked at my paper on the train until we got to the Austrian border.

Uniformed officials got on board. I handed one of them all the papers. He yelled for 70 Marks. I only had US Dollars. So, he removed me from the train and took me to a room with Interpol fugitives photos/images posted on the walls. Several officials surrounding me started arguing. Here and there I picked up a few words. Apparently, my transit visa for Germany had expired—Donna and I forgot to calculate in the time difference. And, I didn’t have a transit visa to go through Austria—even though I wouldn’t be getting off the train. Eventually, they decided to let me through and told me to pay for the visa.

I went to the currency exchange window and asked for 70 Marks. The gentleman asked me why I needed that amount. I told him what happened on the train. As it turned out, a visa would not cost that much. He gave me the correct exchange and wished me bon voyage. I got back on the train as all my fellow passengers looked at me strangely. LESSON LEARNED.

Half year later, before making my return trip, I went to Rome and got all the correct documents. My passport and US visa were current. But I got held up at the Northwest check-in counter at Frankfurt airport. The first Golf War just ended. All airports were on high alert. For whatever reason the ticket agent felt that I was suspicious, she refused to issue me a boarding pass!!! (AND, SHE WASN’T GOING TO EXPLAIN IT TO ME.) Out of desperation, I pulled out an introductory letter from my dissertation advisor—it was meant for research purposes. Very reluctantly, the agent checked me in.

Following these traumatic experiences, I began a 14-year self-imposed exile which deserves a separate post.  During those years, I was asked many times why I couldn’t just become a US citizen.  My long and twisted answers only confused my friends further.  If someone like me—who has the means to always go through the proper channels in order to stay on the right side of the law—could run into so many difficulties crossing the borders, try to imagine what an insurmountable challenge it could be for a refugee and/or a poor person.  Every immigration application comes with a long story.  I respect the law but wish that more people can have the chances of having their stories heard.