Quiet love

This entry is part 3 of 28 in the series Goldfish

My parents met on a blind date set up by a mutual friend. Dad was an established translator of German literature.  Mom read several of his works.  She agreed to meet him out of admiration.

Dad must have made some effort to dress for the occasion.  Yet, according to mom, his dark suit was fading into gray and his white shirt yellowing.  She thought that his steps were unusually quiet until she noticed the thick layer of mud on his shoes.

Mom was born and raised in Taiwan when it was a colony of Japan.  Dad came from mainland China but had lived in Japan for years pursuing his higher education.  Japanese was their common language when they first met.  On a family outing, we visited a well-known temple 圓通寺 (Yuantong Temple).  Mom recalled hiking up there with dad and spent an afternoon without saying much to each other.  It was dad’s all-embracing gentle manner that won her heart.

Mom called dad by his courtesy 海嵐 (Hai-Lan), known only to family members and a few close friends.  It means “ocean mist.”  I always thought it was the most romantic name.  However, in Japanese kanji, the character 嵐, made up of 山 (mountain) on the top and 風 (wind) underneath, means “storm.”  Storm over the ocean?  I could count with my hands how many times dad raised his voice.  Like all couples, my parents didn’t always agree on everything.  They managed to compromise.  Mom ran the household when dad quietly read and wrote.

The steadiness of my parents’ relationship provided a safe environment for me and my brother.  We did not even have to think about being “carefree.”  We were carefree.

How it all started

This entry is part 2 of 28 in the series Goldfish

Mom used to tell this story with amazement.  She would tell it as if it happened just yesterday:

One fine day, not long after marrying dad, mom accompanied a colleague to visit a fortune teller.  As soon as they stepped into the room, he asked if they were both nurses.  He told mom that her career wouldn’t last long.  He said that she wouldn’t have her first child for a few years yet and it would be a girl.

A registered nurse and licensed midwife, mom was sure that, with her training and skills, she would be successful professionally.  Already in her early 30s, she wanted to start a family as soon as possible.  Traditionally, only sons could carry on family names and roots.  Having a first-born girl wasn’t exactly good news.  Not to mention that there was a 25-year difference between my parents.

Four years later, mom gave birth to me following a difficult pregnancy.  During the last trimester, she was put on bed rest and eventually hospitalized.  That was the end of her professional life.  From that point on, mom became a convert.  Occasionally she would seek guidance from deities and fortune tellers.

According to mom, I was demanding from the very beginning.  She craved for guava during pregnancy.  In the late 1950s even in subtropical Taiwan, guava wasn’t readily available in winter months. Dad had to run around town to search for them.  One day she heard the call of a strolling vendor and sent dad out to chase him for fried tofu (油豆腐)—just to be clear, deep-fried foods were never her thing.  Dad came home empty handed yet had enjoyed a snack of sweet soft bean curd (豆花).  Not being able to keep any food down later in her pregnancy, she took American-made vitamins to maintain her energy level.

Mom didn’t have sufficient milk to breastfeed me.  I rejected the formula on the first taste.  For months, mom worried that I would become malnourished.  As soon as it was possible to give me “real foods,” mom found some creative way to boost my diet.  泥鰍 (mudfish) was an economical choice of protein. Mom would steam these tiny fish and separate the flesh from the fine bones; she would mix them in porridge for my daily meals.  I grew to be a chubby kid and enjoyed ANYTHING edible.  For years, mom would praise the wonders of American vitamins and mudfish.

Twenty-seven months after my birth, my brother came along.  He was a happy-go-lucky child, everything that I was not.